we've become engineers now, i still don't believe it, All these four years appears to be a dream, i suddenly might get up out of my bed and ill find myself walking to my school again, may be that way i can live this all one more time but reality is quite different from what we want it to be. The reality is we've become engineers what was a dream for most people a decade ago, we've actually become that and now what!!!!! that's something I'm not very clear about. It was during my school days when the teacher asks us what we are going to be in the future most of the people used to fascinate him telling we want to become doctors , pilots etc..., and i told him i wanted to become a bio technologist, which he didn't take seriously since i wasn't one of those brainy students, but at the end students who said they wanted to become doctors, pilots and all actually became software engineers and IT s, and i was there proudly telling my teacher that I've taken bio technology as i told him before.
As a kid pursuing my dream looked the best thing i could do at that time, that had me end up here in SASTRA but things weren't so pleasant as i had expected, to be honest bio technology was not so fascinating as i had wished it to be. In one of my previous posts i had written about my fear of maths, that was one of the reason i took bio technology apart from my interest for the subject and the first class i attended in SASTRA was mathematics I couldn't believe that, whichever side i turned it was math everywhere in different forms in different semesters, they even made me study Thermodynamics, fluid mechanics, H&M transfer.
In those get-together with my school mates we used to talk about the subjects we study and my friends from different departments used to tell me about their subjects and again there i was confused that i was studying every one of their papers from chemical engineering to mechanical engineering and along with them those life science papers also to add upon my miseries finally i gave up on my studies and decided to sit back and enjoy the show, to see where life is taking me, i seriously believe i have made a wrong decision by taking bio technology but still i dont have any regrets for i have got very good friends out of this miserable department and cock tail of subjects.
If its not for my friends i wouldn't have got through this four years, nevertheless there were ups and downs and hard days that had me stay away from people, sometimes i thought if it was some fault with me that's why things were going wrong and i tried to be different from my true nature like always my friends came for my rescue they were with me till the very end, they might not be aware of what they did, how they helped me out but they taught me that i shouldn't change for anyone, to keep going and to keep laughing, i'm very thankful to every one of you people and its a privilege on my part to write this post here
if i've ever hurt anyone, i'm sure there are a few, i wish to apologize to them even though its not in my nature
"I'M SORRY"
even now i might be laughing inside thinking that what is there to apologize they shd have forgotten and forgiven it if not this people have to grow, You'll never know :)
when i was asked to write something in the blog i wrote everything that came in to my mind may be they are irrelevant, i really don't care..... :) :)
thats bala for you......
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